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Steffi Evenstar · #1 Post by **Steffi Evenstar** » Sat Mar 04, 2006 1:53 am

For the record, I am not drunk right now. I have had no alcohol today.

i'm in the midst of what is a painful week for me. On March 8, 2000, my friend Aaron died of leukemia, and on Ash Wednesday, 2003, Martin, a homeless man who lived at my church committed suicide. These deaths were both very painful for me, and cause this to be a tough week in my life.

it's also a time where i reflect on things.

as most of you know by now, i'm moving back to the east coast on March 21st. while i'm glad i had this time here in California, it's not what i need to be doing right now. i don't think the ministry is the right career for me, and i don't want to keep putting money into Fuller, going more and more into debt, if this isn't what i want to do. i do love So. Cal., but, for right now, i just want to return to a simpler life. i'll be living with my parents near Baltimore until I find a job, i'm hoping to move back to West Virginia.

i just want to say how much i appreciate the people here. when i went through that whole mess with Brandon, ya'll were the ones who talked me through it. friends i had known for years weren't as supportive as y'all were. my best friend since 7th grade thought the solution was to yell at Brandon every chance she got, which definetly wasn't it. i just needed to talk it through with people, and y'all did that for me. i don't think you have any idea how much i've appreciated that.

i know there has been some bad blood in the past, but, in the end, i'm very grateful i stumbled across this community way back in the day.

so, this is just my thanks ... thanks to Vildern for helping me with my Hebrew, to Milan Easton for helping me so much with guy issues, to Vamp for always cheering on one of the few females on here, to BT for being someone who always makes me laugh, to Klytos for those late night conversations, Jamie and Kurdt for being my partners in drunkenness, and Brainiac for, just, well ... everything.

to anyone I forgot, this is just a time for me to say i'm so glad you're here on this board and for all you've said to me over the years. thank you, from the bottom of my heart.

much love,
Steffi

Quest For Glory Fan · #2 Post by **Quest For Glory Fan** » Sat Mar 04, 2006 3:14 am

I felt fuzzy for the second I hoped my name was on that list :p oh well maybe next time. I would aslso like to extend my thanks to this great community because it is a tough transition for me as well and when I think the world can't get more cruel here's you guys and your positive attitudes, rock on AGDI

Brainiac · #3 Post by **Brainiac** » Sat Mar 04, 2006 3:48 am

Any time, Steffi. Any time.

Blackthorne519 · #4 Post by **Blackthorne519** » Sat Mar 04, 2006 6:12 am

Some of us may bicker and be grumbly, but most are fuzzy bunnies at heart.

BUT NOT ME. GO BE SAPPY ON YOUR OWN TIME!!!

Just kidding, Steffi. You know I heart ya, and I think you mean a great deal to many on these forums.

Bt

Angelus3K · #5 Post by **Angelus3K** » Sat Mar 04, 2006 8:36 am

I'd also like to thank everyone for making this the best place on the WWW!

#6 Post by **Erpy** » Sat Mar 04, 2006 11:13 am

Seems like you're having a pretty rough time. Good luck sorting things out and I hope the new road you picked leads to more satisfaction and happiness in the long run. And my condolences for the departure of those close to you.

VampD3 · #7 Post by **VampD3** » Sat Mar 04, 2006 11:35 am

No probs Steffi!! Us females have to stick together with all this testosterone! Without us these forums wouldn't be the same ;) Some of us have to take care of all these men ;)

Its been really good on these forums and I too am really glad I found them all those years back. Its very nostalgic thinking about it and how young I was lol

Quest For Glory Fan · #8 Post by **Quest For Glory Fan** » Sat Mar 04, 2006 12:11 pm

ya, to be honest I'm sticking around for the people ,more than anything. I haven't put more than 20 minutes into playing KQ1 or 2 and I probably won't even play III when I A releases it (soon I hope). I've been waiting for Quest For Glory II since I got here and with company like this the wait will be just as good as the game.

Vildern · #9 Post by **Vildern** » Sat Mar 04, 2006 4:01 pm

That's smart and brave, Steffi. If you don't think it suits you now, I'm glad you are moving back.

You rock.

I thank you for those email exchanges. It means a lot for me.

We are always here for you. *hugs*

Broomie · #10 Post by **Broomie** » Sat Mar 04, 2006 6:43 pm

Steffi, you're one of the greatest people I've encountered this side of the internet and I wish you strength to get through this time. I do feel for you though, every time around December I get very emotional (and I will even more now since last December) as both my Aunty and Grandad died on the same day, four years apart. We all have these times but knowing you have friends on the internet, and you can consider us real even though we're basically just text but you've connected to us.

And thanks for the drunk times aswell. I'll be getting drunk for you tonight. ;)

Da_elf · #11 Post by **Da_elf** » Sun Mar 05, 2006 3:16 am

well. i approach death differently than many other people and its never been a factor that ive alowed to effect my life but i do respect its effect on others as we are all different people. hope things take a turn for the better and glad to see there are many people here that offer shoulders to lean on

. everyone needs to be able to find that flower blossoming in the desert to find happyness in the bleakest places

Angelus3K · #12 Post by **Angelus3K** » Sun Mar 05, 2006 8:34 am

Hang in there Steffi! I know you can get through this transition in your life!

Spikey · #13 Post by **Spikey** » Sun Mar 05, 2006 2:25 pm

I love you Steffi.

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